As I travel into the deeper places in my heart, in prayer and in therapy, I have found a deep craving for silence, right alongside a deep fear of silence. At the core of my fear, is the fear that God will not ‘show up’ in the silence. Growing up, and to this day, my relationship with my dad has been marked by an empty silence.
Read MoreFive branches from the trunk of the split tree
Four girls and a fella, that’s my siblings and me
In Three years we went from complete to shut down
Two people once in love
No one left to be found
Read MoreDay after day, You remain,
And slowly I begin to trust again.
I grow impatient,
You are steady and sure.
You are not afraid
Of my anger and accusations.
You do not run when it is hard.
You stay, You listen, You hear me.
You open my eyes,
And I see what I have always wanted.
Feel the courage to claim it and desire it.
You walk towards me.
And You hold my heart in pieces in Your hands.
Read MoreJesus, Jesus, I am scared.
Rescue me.
You awake and calm the storm
around me.
But there is still a storm
inside me.
You look at me and ask:
Will you show me your hurt?
Will you let me embrace you?
Will you accept my healing grace?
Read MoreThis poem is the fruit of that time of prayer in which God showed me how many voices I allow to control my life, my thoughts and perceptions of reality. And even more so, He showed me how I have a real choice as to what voice I choose to follow in my life.
Read MoreBeing a very proud person, I have struggled a lot, knowing that my husband knows all about my weaknesses and failings—and yet at the same time I have a very deep desire to be totally known and loved. This poem explores this theme, while also touching on the grief of losing our fifth child at 22 weeks last year.
Read MoreThe title is a reference to the old unit of measurement that was roughly the length of a forearm. It expresses how the poorly managed conflict and ultimate breakdown in my parents’ marriage left me avoidant of relationships with others, particularly romantic ones. Even as I met amazing individuals who were attractive on so many levels, I kept them at a distance out of fear and shame...
Read MoreI am here to tell you some amazingly good news! Jesus said in the Gospel of John, “I will not leave you orphans. I will come to you” (Jn 14:18). God, in His infinite wisdom, knows fully the hearts and minds of all His children. He would never write a desire into our hearts without also providing for its fulfillment!
Read MoreForgiveness is hard. I can attest to that. I was born angry (by the looks of my baby picture!) and my parents’ divorce cemented that anger even more. I was the queen of holding grudges; I literally held them for years. But that was before I reverted to Catholicism, and I heard about forgiveness on a daily basis through the Lord’s Prayer and the teachings of Jesus.
Read MoreThis poem came out of a recent time of prayer. When I was two years old, my father left my mother, my sister (3 months old), and myself. We saw him every other weekend for a few years, and then he remarried and moved around the country from job to job for most of my childhood. This poem expresses my struggle to call God “Abba” and to trust in His loving, faithful presence.
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